Thank God for this. I'm so happy. Till next year!

 It was at the last minute that I decided to join. Last year I already joined Body Combat marathon for Team Trinoma for the Individual category. It was Trinoma's first time to join the contest and it's a baptism of fire for all of us. We told ourselves that next year will be better and improved; with all the works, committees and improved members. When I started working night shift I stopped working out and begged off from joining this year's tribe. I convinced my sister in joining instead and she successfully became a member of the tribe. I really got excited and helped her develop her form for the competition. While I was in the sidelines, I challenged myself with my present condition: once a week workout with not much form compare to my last year's well-fit and toned body (and everything, well the picture says it all). This time, a new breed of members coming from different clubs and joined Trinoma. We were fortunate to have them because come the competition, Trinoma was really kicking butt! Though the jury (mostly FF instructors) is quite leaning onto some favorites, we are convinced that we did our best this time and the muay thai costume is an original idea of the team and not a mere copycat (excuse my French). I am very happy and always be proud to be a member of the Trinoma club and yes, next year, I will be back. This time for the Body Jam marathon!

Here is a link of the video for your viewing pleasure. 

It's just this morning that I had my walk once again with the sunshine greeting me. Halfway it suddenly rained a little bit but it's okay because this will never ruin my new day. And I just realized it's already Friday! So I'm anticipating tomorrow's event. I'm going to join the Open Category of this year's Body Combat Muay Thai marathon.

And I thought of you while actually walking down the street. I know you're still asleep. I just remembered when you told me you are actually lucky you have me. I do remembered I told you that just because I really am not sure anymore if I have still someone out there and then you just came. Would you believe it will be another year of our Christmas together? I can't wait.

It's enough that when I look at you, we understand each other very well. No need for so many words and yet I feel that we really have known each other even for just a little while. It's sweet when I woke up seeing you sleeping soundly beside me, you look peaceful and I hugged you. You didn't nudge and I looked at your lips and it was perfect. I wanted to kiss you but I didn't want to destroy the perfect picture of you sleeping. When you opened your eyes, I smiled and breakfast is already ready. The world seemed perfect and the sky is so blue, away from everyone, away from the problems. When I held your hands, they were soft and perfect and I wanted to kiss it but managed just to hold it gently so I can just feel it against mine. I wish this will last and my memories be forever in mine so when I look back, I can just smile and think again when you and I only know of this.

I don't want to panic but it's true, the forecasts have said that next year would not be as productive as before and thus a lot of people will be affected in our company. Fingers crossed we can cross the rough roads and still be in one piece.

Before it seems so hard to believe that you let yourself be a meantime person. In human terms, you are a constant companion or a better word, confidante. But it's not your fault because you felt more than what is required from you. Well, a little bit I guess. She said she likes you and she wanted to be friends with you. She is comfortable around you and she feels that she can share everything with you. But you took it in a different note and thought you are someone really special for her. Did you tell your feelings? Yes you did and she just said, I don't want to lose what we have right now. So how long will this last? You couldn't let go because like you said, you are happy as long as she is happy. BUT did she return your feelings? Not that we should expect from her but at least investing your emotions is really in their best interest.

Suddenly you find yourself in a picture where you feel that she was dense. It was all too obvious, needless to say, you really like her. But she just did not feel the same.

Yep. It will take time to figure things out. You have to acknowledge it. Deny it at first but you have to accept the fact that it was partly your fault. Sorry, no pacing there. But usually, it WILL take time, probably years. But hear this, it will make you stronger, it will build your character, it will be your leverage for you to survive; at least for the part of human relations and emotions.

No, do not blame it to your thinking that you believed in destiny. It's normal. Try to take a walk or sip a coffee slowly, it will give you a clearer view.

I just couldn't help it. I'm in love with the movie.

You just do what you wanted to do, right? And it occurred to me, you betcha. Most of the times, we let ourselves fall right into the situation and later on we say it's because of fate. At times I wanted to disagree and most of the times, I don't. People and events do not just happen, they occur for a reason. It's just that we realize this side of the story when it's almost over. We consider it as an event that we can learn from or that we should just forget and move on. And yes, often than not, we allow it to happen and see ourselves hurting or enjoying what remains of it. But optimists (I know I'm one of them but I was once in the other side of the fence) choose the moments that made them happy and forget things that are considered forgettable. It's something logical but it is usually the hardest thing to do. We delve into self-pity, wondering why these things should happen, thinking that every sad song is ours. But do not fret because we will snap out of it. It's the part of being human, letting ourselves be vulnerable to the emotions, gulping each and every moment. Maybe we will drown but surely we will endure, shedding our old self and rebuilding someone that is new in us and therefore, relearning once again. (I tell you I'm feeling so much better when I try to make some explanation on things!)

What I wanted to say is, happiness is what makes us live each day. Though my premiss is based on our own perspective. One does not need to be in good condition to be happy because like the gospel tried to convey: it is the happiest when you can give more when you have less or something to that effect. A stroke of genius has led me into writing this and I thought if I didn't write this down, my thought babble (potato-potato: same spelling) will be gone in just a snap.

Each day we learn something new or let me rephrase it, each day may be another day (same shit, different day) but really it will be a variation from the other and from that perspective we might learn to be happy all because of a simple event. If it seemed hard to try, try something new, learn something fresh or do something again, the outcome may be different this time.